Good morning! How are you doing? I will be sharing some thoughts today on the topic of change. It is a very interesting topic, in my opinion.
I am currently working on changing, morphing into someone that I not only want to be as I get older, but someone that is proud of being themselves, without any external manipulation or influence. I am not changing my core values or things that I hold dear to myself, but I am trying to become more inclined to think of empathy and how others may be feeling in different situations. I am trying to learn how to think about things more deeply, and obtain a perspective that helps me achieve that more efficiently.
For instance, recently, I have had conversations with friends about Internal Family Systems, and have had some interactions with different aspects with the core idea before, but am beginning to truly realize how powerful and helpful it can actually be. It helps to process emotions and thoughts in a more reflective and respectful way for one's own health, helps to ease the heavier thoughts or feelings I may be having at the time, and helps me perceive others in a more empathetic and understanding way so less conflicts arise.
It's certainly a challenge because it is different and new, but it is very fascinating and I want to make sure that I am doing what I can to do better for myself moreso than for others. That isn't to say that I want to be selfish or egotistical, I just want to focus on how I feel and ensure that I know as a person that how I feel is important, my thoughts aren't stupid or a cause for others' pain or emotional distress. Standing my ground in my own way is a fun yet scary experience, especially with how much I have been worried about others' opinions of me in the past or how they will react.
If I can share a very nerdy thought: I like to imagine my life like the avatar cycle from The Last Airbender. By that, I mean, I have lived part of my life in a similar behavior to airbenders: lively, spirited, looking for enjoyment and connection with others but having trouble with taking some things seriously at times, and that was moreso my childhood. Then, there's the water benders: going with the flow, having an easygoing watery side as well as a rigid icy side, and learning how to manage those two and how to see them as two sides of myself rather than enemies within me, and that was around my teenager years and early adulthood. Next, there is the earth benders, and that's the side I think I'm on, and it's been a struggle. For them, they are stubborn and stand their ground and don't allow others to change their perspective along with not wanting to find a potential other way to do things; they face the issue head-on, and I think they're also pretty grounded and caring in a complicated way. Then, lastly, there's firebenders, and they are a fiery, ambitious, powerful source of energy as well as sometimes being perceived as tempermental or hot-headed, pun intended.
I say all of that as a way to bring some amusing comparison to some of the aspects of my life, and how I kind of view how things have been in my past, as well as show what's going on currently, and where I want to possibly be in the future. With that being said, I don't want to be tempermental or aggressive in the future, just ambitious and wanting to be comfortable enough to go for what I want to make myself truly happy without trying to worry how much it will impact those closest to me, or those possibly not that close to me. I just want to do what makes me happy without being shamed, just as I want to help others find what they desire and things to make them happy without judging or shaming them. Things have changed within me over time, and likely will continue to, as change is a big consistency of life, ironically. Things will change, but that doesn't mean things have to be bad or worse, and they aren't inherently good or positive either, change is just a neutral shift from one thing to another. It depends on what the change morphs into to know if it's possibly good, bad, both, or none, but that's all also up to personal perception. I can get into perception another day, but you'd better expect a massive ramble there, because perception is such a fun, incredibly subjective concept.
Thank you for reading all of this, and I hope to report on another topic, perhaps perception, soon. Have a lovely, marvelous Monday, everyone!
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